Wounded in life, I seek to staunch the wounds of others . . . . --xoj

"Jack Spratt’s two centavo Guide to Redemption”
©2012 by Jack Spratt All Rights Reserved

God's tapestry, all creation, my greatest value an attempt to live/love for: in gratitude, mercy, forgiveness, regardless of Age, Race, Creed, Gender, Gender Proclivities, or Generosity . . . seeking to make redemtion salvation & resurrection potential in all unique, precious, individual lives, human, plant, animal, world. . . .through words & images - Jack Spratt ... KISS

Wednesday, July 25, 2012


120725 16:28 men

“If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will (suffice.) be enough.” --Meister Eckhart (c. 1260 - 1328) was a German philosopher, mystic, and theologian.

Don’t know why Stormy Weather . . . strange here in South Central New Mexico: the monsoon season. Skies are magnificent heat lingers longer into the night . . . yet I’m getting bored with the noise of fans and swamp coolers running all the time longing for cool all the time.

Long time ago I read Sir Kenneth Clark on Nude versus Naked: a thumbnail from my memory: Nude is majestic magisterial and Naked is ashamed to be human. In either or any case in the locker room I sense the future will be well since us old farts and the young bucks are honest about caring for it. Contrary to Pharmaceutical adverting, lies, we laugh about ED, present, past or future.

Dad being hung like a horse, mule and something else altogether -- I am lamentably not -- was insistent that I parade nude before him aboard ships in lieu of his wife who he married same age as myself. I’ve said enough about her elsewhere: see Cmdr. = Commander Chuck E. Cheese.

My point being there is a couple absent for a time on a cruise. He said, when queried about his foxy wife, who suggestively resembles Elizabeth Taylor. I once HER briefly had access to passing swiftly by a press ambush. A woman with balls moving like my mom; look out! We discussed cruises and swapped tales regarding cruise guides.  We dad and me, or I, were lecherous together or apart attacking any woman regardless of age one replied, “You naughty naughty boys want to see my stocking tops?” The odd part was that I sensed eventually after molesting her companion with my eyes and mouth came to conclude they were very good friends sleeping together in the same suite. PC indicates one never asks about wives or husband since so many like boys or girls or girly boys better.

Or the other way around?

I loved him so yet only realize now more so since he’s gone not coming back. I was furious with him since he seldom knew how to say “I love you” to me from infancy onwards to those trips when we became friends. And only now, well I lie -- healing being a process; a winnowing out the wheat from the chaff, no magic bullets ever last . . . he never loved himself . . . so my lifelong efforts were tears upon sand and stone the garden of his consciousness. Same with mom. So my “I love you” was spurious; a plea for them to love me. Never happened until now when I can say with apprehension and conviction that love is a gift freely given without expectation of a reply.

A gift that freely given knows no cynicism or skepticism or Nihilism and indifference,--i.e., that modern man has no goal, no aim, no ideals . . . then you will know you really love yourself and are no longer dependent on the definitions of others your worth. Criticism destructive is unknowing ignorance the obverse is loving of both the giver and receiver. Or. For me at least a better understanding of Jesus saying love your enemy since in doing so is to acknowledge and accept being human and of equal needs

I told M in the pool, “My mother was a Bigot about sex” to which she replied, “All women were more of less so in that generation.” The she started telling about wearing 3 and/or 5 inch heels and I grabbed the water weights to hide my erection. She knows me better than I know myself and merely laughed; both for about and off our love affair asexual. When I confessed my penchant for suicide she replied her intention was always to run away, then that most people are suicidal covertly & here I extrapolate that we PTSD victims are marginally closer than even myself then for a long long time until she saved me. I still smoke cigarettes a long slow ridiculous and costly suicide. When dad suggested that i “man up” and quit. I replied “I don’t think so” He then said, “well you’ll only have to come back and do it all over again.”

? : ?

I’ve done it again speaking of M inappropriately she’ll kill me for it someday soon. It is, this I write, not for me or her but for all of us our love affair with ourselves and then all creation. What we kill, kills us, our ability to love ourselves. Love always is the greater power. All else being merely a pissing contest between little boys who were never loved as infant, boy, adolescent or man. Only very fearful people seek political power and I know the one in the White House isn’t one. Exasperated but not fearful of anything or anyone just like me. There is not anyone or any thing that I envy in the Universe not even God.

Confession is good for the soul it begins inside admitting then accepting the truth, all of it, of yourself and then we grow to love our selves. Possibly, perhaps, it is grotesque for me to unravel the viscera of me and yo yo my soul in front of you?  But it was the only way I discovered I had one; a soul that is. God is the best councilor the other recourses are okay but he does it better and it lasts for ever. Just ask and receive.

. . . Heaven’s Gate is within you and always open for those who seek mindfully . . . so . . . it’s not who you know or blow or from whom you receive praise or money but how well you know yourself that will redeem you in love by the lover of us all -- Even Johns.

 120725 07:13 eric hoffer
"Free men are aware of the imperfection inherent in human affairs, and they are willing to fight and die for that which is not perfect. They know that basic human problems can have no final solutions, that our freedom, justice, equality, etc. are far from absolute, and that the good life is compounded of half measures, compromises, lesser evils, and gropings toward the perfect. The rejection of approximations and the insistence on absolutes are the manifestation of a nihilism that loathes freedom, tolerance, and equity."

"The wise learn from the experience of others, and the creative know how to make a crumb of experience go a long way."

--Eric Hoffer

In addition to Louis L’Amour one one of the most prolific author's in history. My understanding is that Hoffer's estate remains 70 feet long, top to bottom, filled metal shelves packed with his notebooks unread as yet. There is not enough of eternity for me to read those whom I love. And of Hoffer's "The wise . . . " it allowed me to inhabit by affirmation my own style of learning. In retrospect I sense my parents purchased my high school degree--the only degree I have--a forgery in Harlem, New York <:) xoj

120725 15:24 for Kathleen Maher
without credentials except for the wounds in my heart -- as Rumi might say or possibly said -- is to become sovereign in the Self who writes. His, Rumi's love shows as does yours, forget how, finding the why to write; the heart knows the brain is merely seven pounds of tofu. I am too old to consider something the implied length of a novel and have therefore no inclination to do so though should I live a few more years I might. I have empathy for but no sympathy for myself. Let this humble collection slowly expanding as I find them be a referent point for idle moments of doubt . . . may I be a surrogate father to you? It would be a pleasure to share my sense of teaching to see what you're looking at.

Writer's Quotes

088. How to Write a Chinese Poem
A well-known Japanese poet was asked how to compose a Chinese poem.

"The usual Chinese poem is four lines," he explains. "The first line contains the initial phase; the second line, the continuation of that phase; the third line turns from this subject and begins a new one; and the fourth line brings the first three lines together. A popular Japanese song illustrates this:

Two daughters of a silk merchant live in Kyoto.
The elder is twenty, the younger, eighteen.
A soldier may kill with his sword.
But these girls slay men with their eyes.

"A poet should leave traces of his passage, not proofs. Traces alone engender dreams." ~ René Char
"A true poet does not bother to be poetical. Nor does a nursery gardener scent his roses." --Jean Cocteau
"A writer should write with his eyes and a painter paint with his ears." --Gertrude Stein
"All my life I’ve looked at words as though I were seeing them for the first time.” --Ernest Hemingway
"All slang is metaphor, and all metaphor is poetry." --G. K. Chesterton
"Art is the triumph over chaos. --John Cheever

"Art, though, is never the voice of a country; it is an even more precious thing, the voice of the individual, doing its best to speak, not comfort of any sort, but truth. And the art that speaks it most unmistakably, most directly, most variously, most fully, is fiction; in particular, the novel.”
--Eudora Welty in On Writing

"All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they had really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that all that happened to you and afterwards it all belongs to you: the good and the bad, the ecstasy, the remorse and sorrow, the people and the places and how the weather was. If you can get so that you can give that to people, then you are a writer.”
--Ernest Hemingway

‘And the words slide into the slots ordained by syntax, and glitter as with atmospheric dust with those impurities which we call meaning.’

Before the words slide into their slots, they are just discrete items, pointing everywhere and nowhere. Once the words are nested in the places ‘ordained’ for them — ‘ordained’ is a wonderful word that points to the inexorable logic of syntactic structures — they are tied by ligatures of relationships to one another. They are subjects or objects or actions or descriptives or indications of manner, and as such they combine into a statement about the world, that is, into a meaning that one can contemplate, admire, reject, or refine.” --Stanley Fish on Anthony Burgess sentence from his 1968 novel Enderby Outside
“As I walk, I construct perfect sentences that I cannot remember later at home. I don’t know if the ineffable poetry of those sentences derived from what they were or from their never having been (written).”  --Fernando Pessoa
“Because this business of becoming conscious, of being a writer, is ultimately about asking yourself, How alive am I willing to be?” --Anne Lamott
"Begin with an individual and you find that you have created a type; begin with a type and you find that you have created — nothing.” --F. Scott Fitzgerald
"Breathe in experience, breathe out poetry.” --Muriel Rukeyser
COLBERT: What does it take for a celebrity to make a successful (children’s) book, what do I gotta do?
SENDAK: You’ve started already by being an idiot. That is the very first demand.
"Don’t ever write a novel unless it hurts like a hot turd coming out.” --Charles Bukowski
"Fiction is a lie, and good fiction is the truth inside the lie.” --Stephen King
"Fiction that adds up, that suggests a ‘logical consistency,’ or an explanation of some kind, is surely second-rate fiction; for the truth of life is its mystery.” --Joyce Carol Oates in The Journal of Joyce Carol Oates: 1973-1982
"First, there must be talent, much talent. Talent such as Kipling had. Then there must be discipline. The discipline of Flaubert. Then there must be the conception of what it can be and an absolute conscience as unchanging as the standard meter in Paris, to prevent faking. Then the writer must be intelligent and disinterested and above all he must survive. Try to get all these things in one person and have him come through all the influences that press on a writer. The hardest thing, because time is so short, is for him to survive and get his work done.” --Ernest Hemingway
“Every great poem is in itself limited by necessity, — but in its suggestions unlimited and infinite.” -- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
"Good fiction is made of what is real, and reality is difficult to come by.” --Ralph Ellison
"I can't write a book commensurate with Shakespeare, but I can write a book by me."--Sir Walter Raleigh
"I don't write for children. I write --- and somebody say, 'That's for children!' I didn’t set out to make children happy or make life better for them, or easier for them." --Maurice Sendak
“I feel love for all this, perhaps because I have nothing else to love ... even though nothing truly merits the love of any soul, if, out of sentiment, we must give it, I might as well lavish it on the smallness of an inkwell as on the grand indifference of the stars.” --Fernando Pessoa
"I have been nothing ... but there is tomorrow." --Louis L'Amour
"I never thought of myself as a writer, but the simplest thing seemed to be to put a piece of paper in the roller and start typing." --Cynthia Friedman
"I too must attempt a way by which I can raise myself above the ground, and soar triumphant through the lips of men. ." --Virgil
“I write to define myself — an act of self-creation — part of my process of becoming.” --Susan Sontag
“If I write what I feel, it's to reduce the fever of feeling. What I confess is unimportant, because everything is unimportant.” --Fernando Pessoa
"If life had a second edition, how I would correct the proofs." --John Clare
“If you wish to be a writer, write.” --Epicurus
"Listen, then make up your own mind.” --Gay Talese
“Literature is the art of writing something that will be read twice; journalism what will be grasped at once.” -- Cyril Connolly
"Immature poets imitate; mature poets steal.” --T. S. Eliot
“In the ordinary jumble of my literary drawer, I sometimes find texts I wrote ten, fifteen, or even more years ago. And many of the seem to me written by a stranger: I simply do not recognize myself in them. There was a person who wrote them, and it was I. I experienced them, but it was in another life, from which I just woke up, as if from someone else's dream.” --Fernando Pessoa
"Life resembles a novel more often than novels resemble life." --George Sand
"Personality is everything in art and poetry." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
"[Pared-down prose] is a real loss, not because we necessarily need more Jamesian novels but because too often the instruction to ‘omit needless words’ (Rule 17) leads young writers to be cautious and dull; minimalist style becomes minimalist thought, and that is a problem.” --Adam Haslett
“Oh love will make a dog howl in rhyme.’ --John Fletcher
“One writes out of one thing only — one's own experience. Everything depends on how relentlessly one forces from this experience the last drop, sweet or bitter, it can possibly give. This is the only real concern of the artist, to recreate out of the disorder of life that order which is art.” -- James Baldwin
"Playing around with symbols, even as a critic, can be a kind of kiddish parlor game. A little of it goes a long way. There are other things of greater value in any novel or story… humanity, character analysis, truth on other levels, etc., etc. Good symbolism should be as natural as breathing… and as unobtrusive.” --Ray Bradbury
"Poetry is all that is worth remembering in life." --William Hazlitt
"Poetry is the art of uniting pleasure with truth." --Samuel Johnson
“Poets are never young, in one sense. Their delicate ear hears the far-off whispers of eternity, which coarser souls must travel towards for scores of years before their dull sense is touched by them. A moment's insight is sometimes worth a life's experience. (Sr.)” --Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr,
"Say all you have to say in the fewest possible words, or your reader will be sure to skip them; and in the plainest possible words or he will certainly misunderstand them." --John Ruskin
The impetus towards more personal, more autobiographical writing, dates back at least a century and a half before Life Studies. In February 1797 Samuel Taylor Coleridge wrote in a letter to Thomas Poole: "I could inform the dullest author how he might write an interesting book — let him relate the events of his own life with honesty — not disguising the feelings that accompanied them." --Samuel Taylor Coleridge (poet)
"The final belief is to believe in a fiction, which you know to be a fiction, there being
nothing else. The exquisite truth is to know that it is a fiction and that you believe in it willingly.” --Wallace Stevens in Opus Posthumous: Poems, Plays, Prose
"The greatest thing a human soul ever does in this world is to see something and tell what it saw in a plain way. Hundreds of people can talk for one who can think, but thousands can think for one who can see. To see clearly is poetry, prophecy and religion, all in one." --John Ruskin
"The most essential gift for a good writer is a built-in, shockproof shit detector. This is the writer’s radar and all great writers have had it.” --Ernest Hemingway
"The poet doesn't invent. He listens." --Jean Cocteau
“The poet is the priest of the invisible.” --Wallace Stevens
"The problem with fiction, it has to be plausible. That’s not true with non-fiction.” --Tom Wolfe in Advice to Writers
"The reason that fiction is more interesting than any other form of literature, to those who really like to study people, is that in fiction the author can really tell the truth without humiliating himself.” -Eleanor Roosevelt in The Autobiography Of Eleanor Roosevelt
"The writer is not…an all-powerful architect of our reading experience. The writer guides the way we imagine but does not determine it. A film begins with a writer producing a screenplay. But it is the director who brings the screenplay to life, filling in most of the details. So it is with any story. A writer lays down words, but they are inert. They need a catalyst to come to life. The catalyst is the reader’s imagination." --Gottschall
"There isn’t any symbolysm [sic]. The sea is the sea. The old man is an old man. The boy is a boy and the fish is a fish. The sharks are all sharks no better and no worse. All the symbolism that people say is shit. What goes beyond is what you see beyond when you know.” --Ernest Hemingway
“To have opinions is to sell out to yourself. To have no opinion is to exist. To have every opinion is to be a poet.” --Fernando Pessoa
"To read a poem in January is as lovely as to go for a walk in June." -Jean Paul
“To write is to forget. Literature is the most agreeable way of ignoring life. (Music soothes, the visual arts exhilarates, the performing arts (such as acting and dance) entertain. Literature, however, retreats from life by turning in into slumber. The other arts make no such retreat— some because they use visible and hence vital formulas, others because they live from human life itself.
This isn't the case with literature. Literature stimulates life. A novel is a story of what never was, a play is a novel without narration. A poem is the expression of ideas or feelings a language no one uses, because no one talks in verse.”) -- Fernando Pessoa  ―The Book of Disquiet
"Truth is stranger than fiction, but it is because Fiction is obliged to stick to possibilities; Truth isn’t.” --Mark Twain
“We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection.” --Anais Nin
"Writing is like getting married. One should never commit oneself until one is amazed at one's luck." --Iris Murdoch
“Writing is like paying myself a formal visit…” --Fernando Pessoa
“Writing is not a serious business. It’s a joy and a celebration. You should be having fun with it. . . ” " . . I learned to write by writing. I tended to do anything as long as it felt like an adventure, and to stop when it felt like work — which meant that life did not feel like work." --Ray Bradbury
"Writers write to influence their readers, their preachers, their auditors, but always, at bottom, to be more themselves." --Aldous Huxley
"Write something, even if it's just a suicide note." --Anonymous +f
"Writing, when properly managed (as you may be sure I think mine is) is but a different name for conversation." --Laurence Sterne
"Yes, I have tricks in my pocket, I have things up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you truth in the pleasant disguise of illusion.” -Tennessee Williams in The Glass Menagerie
"You never have to change anything you got up in the middle of the night to write.” --Saul Bellow
"You should never read just for ‘enjoyment.’ Read to make yourself smarter! Less judgmental. More apt to understand your friends’ insane behavior, or better yet, your own. Pick ‘hard books.’ Ones you have to concentrate on while reading. And for god’s sake, don’t let me ever hear you say, ‘I can’t read fiction. I only have time for the truth.’ Fiction is the truth, fool! Ever hear of ‘literature’? That means fiction, too, stupid.” --John Waters in Role Models

120725 0403 sometimes

The "myth" of Sisyphus
At times I'm the rock
other times I'm the sand
in my mouth as the rock rolls over me
again & again it's play for me to be played with

Beware of me I am devious and love being so
Since in time my best teacher the torturer dear old Mom
I could beguile and confuse her smirking inside as I say of others so I was and still am Mr. Gloat & Smirk the jerk!

Why 'Jerk'? Well what I can I say of or about myself? 1st is the simple fact that I adore my perceptions of people places and things . . . He was from Arkansas looked like the Sling Blade victim and would say to me "I can strip you and dick you so fast you'll never know it happened" It was a mantra of his said at lightening speed and I was then at eighteen modestly or moderately offended not knowing why? But at that I've been hit on by more men then women a lamentable circumstance though out my "life?" And now that it draws nigh this death of mine I have no fear since it is not theory but experience that the Author of me is greater than anything I describe and at that I still at night walk amongst the stars kicking solar systems with my bare toes 2nd I am of course completely insane like Jonathan Winters our subtle kindness making people laugh at me he or themselves is our game 3rd The devil's got nothing on me not even god my playmates in the sandbox of eternity 4th I love a woman so hard that I might eat her alive and then she'd be no more a nothing but a previous dream of ecstasy 5th I misapprehend even the simplest of parables seeing things never intended but discovered and digested as something else . . . perhaps I'm the swine eating myself? 6th I would contend with God for my child's lives even the one gone despising me but perhaps maybe not I aggrandize myself since I'll never know loving my ignorance 7th I am swifter than the particle accelerator but it is impossible to take a self portrait of me zooming so I traffic in the faces of others those I know better as scribbled upon by Father/Mother God and I without boast can enter the soul of you pull your spine pick my teeth and put it all back together and you won't know what happened unit the images spit out of the slot as you part the black curtains of Granny Smith's nickel masturbator of Tom Swift, Dad and me laughing in the mercantile penny arcade the cancer of consumption we've become the Hardy Boys, Inc. selling death wholesale who cares? 8th my favorite scenario The Gong Show the guy with the plate glass his lips pressed against the megaphone making farting noises like all politicians like my baby half-brother Commander Stephen Norman Spratt whom I early on simply out of intuition and sensing and feeling began  thinking of him spontaneously as The Great Commander Chuck E. Cheese the wolverine of greed who can survive on the toe cheese in your eyes 9th Station when I receive you in Hades I'll give you very special assignments a tuition for which though you stole mine, my son's, my daughter's you will never end the payments for 10th station a sophist am I trained by mom's random attacks you never knew her did you? I'm worse. No geek am I biting the heads of chickens but something else biting your head off and putting it back so fast you'll think of Woodstock an epic of child's play or merely you da mouse & I da cat why because I like being the mouse and you da cat.

No more stations of the cross you crossed me and I adore fucking with you have a nice eternity OFU! well maybe it should be OGFU? In closing I remember calling Randy 'you little fart' to which he eventually said "what say Big Fart!?" You my little shit Commander Stephen Norman Spratt the minutia of mouse shit do not deserve to live. . . .at the very least you should change your name to Mr. Me a Putz

© 2012 by Jack Spratt All Rights Reserved