120624
02:48
There's time Then there are times I don't wa'na live
The
blues done come and got me
&
I can't pass through walls like I did before I just splatter against
them A gray moth greasy smear on the front of a Greyhound Bus baked
on
Ain't
nothing to see
Nothing
to hear
Nothing
Just
me gone Zero
What
are the Blues?
Honey
I ain't Black I'm the Heart of Darkness personified & black as
the night on night The Night of Eternity Not a star in sight Never
is Never was Never wa'na be anything Not even Love
Nothing
at all again or ever was Black Hole Reality
Gone
Don't
wana go on Jesus come get me Please Dear God I've had enough
smothered dead by indifference THEY, Inc. Win I lose The ones with
THE MONEY HONEY done raped me then my children then slayed me dead
after eating my children
All
dead for All time
The
last time I saw Jesus I was driving North Bound on Route 95 somewhere
around Essex Connecticut surrounded by assholes driving SUV s front
to back side to side couldn't stop go forward and I cried Keep you
cool bro there's nowhere to go You're on your own & He left me
Last Time & I still cry whenever whatever all the time alone on
the front of a Greyhound Bus in Tuscon midnight left behind the bald
light of day the 5th of July
god
Goddam
DA
MAN
I
don't wannabe nice just me eschew obfuscation OFU! amen
120623
07:10
Ideologies
by their nature tend to be obsessional leading to bigotry. This I
know from self examination and redemption to a greater & more
universal truth. . . . a sunrise after the darkest night.
In
perfect honesty transparently rendered my roots are christian meaning
Jesus is my primary entry point to The All via either Catholicism or
Protestantism. For both venues I owe a debt of gratitude. Yet in time
I’ve become conversant with all religions
commonly available and some that are not. It followed from my
baptism, Methodist, in time and turn I became Baptist (American
Convention) then Episcopal and nominally Catholic through work as a
photojournalist for various local and national Catholic newspapers or
agencies.
The
latter made available to me a scholarship for a three year course of
study entitled: “The Spirituality of Christian Leadership”: one
night a week plus six retreats per year. There I came to know better
and not fear Catholicism plus deep insights into the lives of the
Saints. Then by extrapolation the saints among us now both and/or all
definitions, traditions, boundless inclusive of and superseding
definitions save one: self-derived and/or inspired. So, in some
profound sense, if I must define myself to those who would be
intimate with me; I am not religious or spiritual but inclusive of
all of the above and more. Deriving inspiration—the in breathing of
what I call God via a plethora of disciplines without prejudice or
bigotry or slavery even to God.
If
I am a ‘slave’ it is to your freedom and liberty to join the
chorus of our species’ will to Love. And thence to make love
possible for all of us instead of hatred and greed or destruction
ownership and death. To this end I remain an adherent to Islam,
Buddhism and Taoism. Never a “True Believer” in the sense
manifest in Eric Hoffer’s definition of the term I retain a
fundamental to my life Faith in God. The Who all prophets came to
proclaim, manifest and publish.
“Faith
is much better than belief. Belief is when someone else does the
thinking.”
---R.
Buckminster Fuller who also
said: "In order to change an existing paradigm you do
not struggle to try and change the problematic model. You create a
new model and make the old one obsolete."
Please
forgive my trespass I have no intention of leading you, anyone, or
myself astray; yet it is my apprehension and conviction that we must
enter a universal dialog sans power, greed, profit that we as a
species survive in peace
before the death of our planet home. It may already be too late since
we are at 3 Billion over capacity now and growing hourly.
With apology I am
conversant with the two diametrically apposed wisdom traditions: one
most often followed is to accept the love and grace speaking though
the mouths of many who proclaim nothing beyond their small following
in life leaving in peace and tranquility. The other is more
difficult, for me defined by those who are assassinated or killed,
advocates for all mankind in their lives cut short. They are many yet
few well known unpublished other than as statistics assassinated by
Institutions: Religious, Governmental or Incorporated for Profit.
I know Jesus by his
first name, the latter “Christ” or anointed with oil came after
His departure by any means prophecies notwithstanding. As for myself
I am nothing. At very best imperfect. My Messianic Complex
excoriated gibbeted and evaporated long ago. But We need a new One
and I sense it must be us since we are the body of God, God’s
Church, Temple, Mosque, and/or wherever the rest of us assemble to
worship and reverence The Great I Am to whom we must eventually in
life or death submit. Whether we believe have faith or do not.
I do not weep now but
laugh remembering the origins of my baptism The Wesley Brothers
preaching beneath trees in factories wherever with no birds to light
upon their shoulders as St. Francis by legend did.
My peace I give you
or at the very least
an aid to you in
finding
your own in a time of
chaos
suffering & what
seemingly must
end in the death of our
home and us.
. . . the nature of
love; acceptance of everything divine and obnoxious within us
individually
Next is the nature of
Free Will: it is choice to be, or not to be, loving, merciful,
empathetic deliberate assertive proactive versus reactive,
responsible, honest and to participate
& last since the
end is nearer than I know for us do no harm for any reason
it being far too easy
to kill instead of love. . . .
Only Breath
Not Christian or Jew or
Muslim, not Hindu
Buddhist, sufi, or zen.
Not any religion
or cultural system. I
am not from the East
or the West, not out of
the ocean or up
from the ground, not
natural or ethereal, not
composed of elements at
all. I do not exist,
am not an entity in
this world or in the next,
did not descend from
Adam and Eve or any
origin story. My place
is placeless, a trace
of the traceless.
Neither body or soul.
I belong to the
beloved, have seen the two
worlds as one and that
one call to and know,
first, last, outer,
inner, only that
breath breathing human
being. --Rumi
Preface 120623 11:30
Of, for, by choice, I
am astonished at my ignorance in these times; the end game of my
life. I have no excuse now since the fear I knew from infancy onward
of being tested and found unworthy of life itself is healed. Healing
is not absolute nor redemption absolution or atonement but a process,
one that I intuit sense think and feel will proceed after my demise;
such is the nature of my faith: universal.
If I am constrained by
the defensive walls constructed to protect me from all hazard real or
imagined by my hands not alone they are dissolved. I was once told I
could or would or might heal. Initially it seemed that I was to heal
myself. Later on I asked again what I was to do and/or could I really
heal not others or myself but simply whatever came down the pike or
such as was provided me to do. At the moment flickering across the
screen of my consciousness are the 6 Million & the 60 Million
slain for the gratification of an ideology. That was then, this is
now, and within me and all of us is the treasure that will keep us in
peace or merely health for which we are 90% responsible.
My
ignorance is huge, vast beyond any ability I have fill regardless how
much I do to amend the vacuum
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