Bertha & Ray Tellez marrying off their first daughter #2 2 Chris said she had her original wedding ring stolen someone broke into their or her home before during after? whatever happened when and why the stolen ring began a string of thoughts that slowly began to eviscerate me maybe dissolve? maybe not but it began to hurt and the water began to fill my eyes somewhat like looking like I was looking at the stations some had been stolen and were Xerox copies?
U know it used to be that when working it would be for me frenzy entering the cyclone of considering all the variables within potential capture inside the frame of what a camera sees so it follows that there are mom, dad and four girls of whom one is the bride to be soon married. . . .What's her name?
oh dear me What's her name? 2-3-1-4? not Bertha or Ray of course! I'd asked them to wear NFL Football Jerseys over their wedding costumes but they laughed and giggled and smirked at me (the really didn't understand my greed and need to direct the choreography of the wedding march to and from the alter since I am not ordained and Father Dom would have to kick me away from IT! . . . U know in times past I'd say the best thing that ever happened to me was learning to read the Dick & Jane Reader, then I discovered playing with myself---oh boy!---then girls---more better---kisses and things like that the trouble with kissing girls is that it leads to soooooo muuccchch more like .......................babies Well i really don't like boys all that much. what's a guy gonna do? moving right alone/along then came M im so crazy for M the best event of my life and maybe maybe not in heaven for me is to make M laugh. Robin Williams and Jonathan Winters make room for me in the funny farm fun house filled with distorting mirrors the carnival of wonder a MIRROR MAZE!!
U know i really shouldn't share this with you or anyone . . . shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsh! can you keep a secret? I sometimes am seized by visions, omens, runes, ruins of my heart, visions and daydreams, myths and portents: things that just make me wanna run jump shout ride the ceiling fans going about completely nuts.
u sea Bertha said the wedding rings could be replaced but her high school class ring could not and she's worked long and hard to pay for that weeping blood and shedding sweat to purchase it and the thief or thieves Incorporated meaning the rights of individuals to bore me to tears with their greed well than I began to cry and had to walk away and make someone laugh before I became hysterical upon the floor a puddle of love evaporating like a jelly fish in July in the Death Valley abandoned when i was a little boy never really small but smaller than i am now i don't mean around! but as tall!@ Mom had this ring in her sewing basket and i saw it and asked what it was why what for and she said it was for me when I growed up and of course U sea i went crazy nuts wanting that ring right away and again and again i begged for it she eventually gave it to me a man's ring she bought for her graduation when she was a well just a girl and not a woman or mother of me for me and wearing it i lost it somewhere in the playground of Old Greenwich Elementary School and i remembered it was muddy and cold that day i died of shame weeping with guilt i wandered into dusk then dark then dawn looking for that ring oh Dear God why do i still love silent women? Wouldn't it have been better if she had beaten me to death or stabbed me with her pinking shears or used me for a thimble or pin cushion??????????????????????????????????????????
God U can't fool me since mom forgave me last night telling me it wasn't my fault since she could have wrapped the ring with band aids and it wouldn't have fallen off . . . I loved/love/will always love mom for ever. Finally forgiven never forgotten in Maysville Kentucky
i have to say this i did wrong 4 wrong wrong 4 right 4 right and on and on ad infinitum in love for mom God as dad never really worked for me since he dad was just a clown silent watching not smirking but inert while she beat the tar out of me at times but that was all healed at the Tellez Wedding Rehearsal and by mom this morning sometime after midnight and there was is a full moon too, two 2 in a tutu dancing the best prayer after music but of course the two go together don't they!?
1209829 08:08 Tellez Wedding
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