120801 02:34 Judas Iscariot
I have arisen from a dream which defines me in ways difficult to accept as Judas Iscariot. Inherent in the dream's message was the role of avenger for the deaths of God' Children of which, of course, we all are. Yet some seem called to devour in greed everything in sight.
There are certain aspects of my personality that I am not comfortable with since it implies, at least to me and with my powers of discernment, that I am less benign than my ideal of man god or Jesus.
Baptized Methodist, an occasional Congregationalist, then for a long period of time attendance to no church. Then briefly Baptist and finally my last sincere attendance: The Episcopal Church of America. What I call and sense The Anglican Communion profoundly based upon the absence of a Pope. Or simply: Pro - test - tant.
Without artifice or conceit or intent to promote or advance any specific theology save the significance of Free Will for all, which at the moment, seems the left hand of love, mercy, compassion, empathy, kindness and sacrifice. There is virtually no part of me indifferent to anything.
"God helps those who help themselves"?!
As man and child I have been victim and helpless to stave off the deaths of anything or anyone yet in prayer have I plead to be the one to die in their stead. Simultaneously aware that my sense of death was then simply what it implies: dead and buried, this body to rot -- end of story. Add to which my sense of Jesus or any of the characters within the narrative of The Bible -- Both Books -- The Old and New Testament from beginning to end there is zero sentimentality. What I have come to perceive as idolatrous idolatry of ideas used to sell a belief system and not promote faith. . . .And in faith I would be for God anything God, in His infinite will for me for all mankind decided. . . .Even Judas Iscariot.
Spiritually and intellectually I've wandered far afield of "Christianity" without censure of Our Father. If anything, encouragement to know the divinity inherent in all Prophets who define God differently than I was formerly comfortable with. Yet each stripped of their costumes, difficult to understand languages and customs I discovered a common thread. A will to know, love and submit in life, worship and death "God."
Through, possibly, inappropriate confession, through the agency, or venue, of these pages I have proven my imperfection and ordinary humanity fully conscious of my intention to enable others to know themselves divine of origin. Instead of all the lies explicit to me at least in the various brands of human experience and thought -- the what we are willing to live by and die for in real flesh and blood terms -- I would suggest that you must decide not in belief but faith a choice.
You, though I know you not specifically, are worth my life to teach you the value God given within you.
Chortling here at my temptation to quote the wisdom of another, a Buddhist Master, since it seems now that I must write it myself incomprehensible or not.
What you love incarnates what you will become. I have a cat named Annie but I in loving her will no more be a cat than her love for me makes her human . . . I should have said I have a companion a cat named Annie and in our love for each other incarnate God's love for all life.
"When we love properly, we expand our love for a few to compassion for all. This love can help all beings to live with happiness and freedom, and it is anything but small and powerless–it is the reason for our existence!" --Buddhist Master
04:42 Pause
Typical of my practice I seek affirmation in quotes, and there were several that seemed indicative of what I sought, yet simultaneously I discerned a need to close with my own:
Read the runes and ruins of your heart carefully since the reckoning is soon for all of us.
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If the rich could hire other people to die for them, the poor would make a wonderful living.
- Jewish proverb
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