Jack Spratt

120629 00:19 mercy

The more I learn better discerned ignorance greater than my knowing @ having a concern will I forever on spiritual training wheels be unlike my now long dead son who I remember best seen arms folded laughing through Rush Hour Traffic bicycle gliding innocent of fear two wheels self guided

Of my daughter @ I instant knew emergent her mothers womb witnessed death inevitable a future never

I have had & been held enthralled by Bigotries unconscious against Wealth Serving @ hospice I came to a knowing explicit the democracy of death revealed/experienced @ which all become equal rich or poor then meek inherent & Those about to die teach me best the value of living a humility Greater this preciously held eternal Now inhabit

Grief has haunted my life @ the moment of diagnosis then witnessing his drowning last breath leaving behind bereft me & my hypocrisies many The greatest follows I could not accept then the pain lingering until now in suffering idolatry

It is said that pain is inevitable But suffering is choice Merely optional It is not so much that the pain of losing my children plus many other things believed lost @ infancy onward Better said not that I was infernally fearful I would never die & possibly rest in peace but that my suffering would remain infinite forever eternal unending

All are equal @ the end regardless Monuments erected For in time all Mountains are made plain as deserts & Those remembered are never dead by they who traverse pain in life Courageous reconciled & tempered by Joy having ever loved and been loved in return by The Beloved gone forward

Transfigured bicycles & tricycles become solo sailing vessels @ life training wheels minus one a catamaran where previously I sailed a trimaran Finally will I return to myself sailing singly a dingy roughly proportionate a coffin upon my back unknowing where I'm going @ night the stars blazing above and I once again returned to the innocent trust of my course through eternity

@ the very very End my vessel aflame children returned embraced we beloved of The Beloved a Norse Funeral Pyre & then

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“It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.” --Marcus Aurelius Antoninus